Day 105 - Blood Pressure Again

Need to put this down so I can remember how many trips my husband will have made to medical for his Blood pressure. I believe this is now trip 2 since in Afghanistan and trip 5 since being activated in April.  Do they not see the pattern? 

Hubby has had a headache and neck pain for last few days. He also travelled this week by helicopter for a couple days as well. He broke down and went to doctor to be checked out.  They determined he possibly has arthritis developing in his neck causing the pain and headache, which then elevates his blood pressure. They gave him a cortisone shot and sent him on his way. He was ordered to rest & relax for a few days. So no work and lots of boredom on his agenda. He is supposed to go back for a blood pressure recheck tomorrow. But I have learned that those mean nothing. As long as they have a body and it is breathing they don't care about the welfare and health of the soldiers. I am not surprised by the arthritis determination... he is 6'5" after all and spends most days crouching through doorways.

On the bright side its Friday!

Day 100 - My self proclaimed first milestone

350 days.... How am I going to do 350 days away from my husband? While he is in a foreign country where danger is always there. I still dont know the answer to that question. It is NOT easy. That I do know for sure.
Well I have made it 100 days. I suppose it is an accomplishment. It doesn't quite feel like one. Now my countdown is til he comes home on leave. I try really hard not to think about the 6 more months after he leaves.

It isnt any easier at day 100 than it was on day 1... Every day is a challenge. At the moment it is lack of internet. I look forward to the few minutes I get on the phone with my husband. Since he moved rooms he has no internet so we must be at the mercy of the phone center at the camp. The phones that have a 6 second delay... so frustrating.

And then to learn that others from his training class in Lousiana are being sent home permanently in December. How did those few get so lucky? Why can't they all be sent home? Especially the ones they really have no purpose for. As my husband is now maybeon  his 3rd or 4th job since he arrived. Not one of them being what he was sent there for. 

So I suppose that since I made it to day 100 I will make it to 200 and 300.

Day 97 Kennels

I was really trying to wait until Day 100 to post about how I never thought I would make it to Day 100; however, this morning I just needed to write. Days are passing by. No they NEVER get easier. You just take one day at a time. Is morning harder than evening? It depends on the day. Every part of the day is hard. Don't let anyone tell you it ever gets easier during deployment. We are taking it day by day and then WHAM... I get a call from the hubby that they have decided he needs to move rooms. Okay... first of all I can't even consider what he is staying in as a room. It is plywood with a door. They have no floor to ceiling walls either. So when we do talk I can hear other peoples televisions and radios, etc. We had just got his internet to work in his room. Internet that by the way he is splitting with another person because the service providers in the country are charging an arm and a leg. If I recall correctly it is $170.00 a month!!! So 1/2 of that is costing us $85.00 a month!! Anyways, back to room moving. Apparently the room is 1/2 the size of the room he had before, which wasn't much. Room for a locker and a bed... so for a 6'5" man he is basically living in a sardine can. I really believe that my dog gets better treatment at the kennel when we board her.  My husband is a reservist. He was activated by a computer who picked his name. He is 43 years old... Yes I know this is what they sign up for, but seriously, I really think that for risking their lives they could be treated a little better. And yes, before I married a military man, I used to wonder what they were complaining about... Free healthcare, commissary, etc. Those benefits are nothing when your loved one is being treated like a piece of trash.  Fighting for a country that doesnt even appreciate us being there.

I've tried really hard to stay positive during this deployment. I knew what I was getting myself into... well sort of. I knew about the being 1/2 a world away from each other for a year. But I had no idea how horribly our men and women are treated overseas. I am thankful this is the 1st and only deployment we will have.  I honestly dont know how women w/children or women w/out children do multiple deployments. We are strong women. And though for the most part I may appear strong... I am crumbling on the inside. Counting down days keeps me sane. It gets me through each day. I have to hold onto the day he comes home. I have to look forward to our being together in 253 days. However, I know that number isnt correct either. Not knowing what day he will be home really sucks! 

So now I sit and wait for the next call... and wonder when it will be.

88 days... And getting closer to R & R

Life has been pretty normal and routine lately. Hubby is at the "rock" and the weather is finally cooling down. They had their first day of rain yesterday. We are getting close to 100 days down and we tentatively have leave dates for December. So looking forward to 15 days in a row with my husband before he has to return. I'm just staying busy. This last weekend was my sister's Bachelorette Party in northern California and next month is her wedding. The days dont get any easier but each day is a day closer to him being back home for good.