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Updating so I can remember this journey.

August was my HSG and it came back all clear. It did however completely mess up my cycle and cause me to spot for 15 days straight :-( But thankful it came back clear.

September was hubby's turn. My OB office calls with their interpretation of the results and immediately refer us to Seattle Reproductive Medicine.

Last Friday was our consultation and the confirmation I knew was coming. We will not conceive on our own. Hubby's results came back completely normal - Thank Goodness! However, due to my age and lack of a left ovary the odds of conceiving on our own are not good. I was so glad our insurance pays for this consultation and the ultrasound I received the same day. I have one follicle ready to go so thankfully I do ovulate monthly. Our insurance covers 3 IUIs so as soon as a positive OPK appears I call and set up our IUIS for the next day. I got that positive OPK this morning so I will be calling and getting my appointment for tomorrow. I waver from complete positivity and the complete opposite. If this doesn't work, then IVF is our only option. And that is not covered by insurance. It's so expensive.

I'm trying to be positive and optimistic. I'm praying this is our chance!

Ch-ch-ch-changes

When I first began reading blogs I read any that caught my interest - mommy blogs, adoption blogs, infertility blogs, recipe blogs.... So when I began my blog a little over a year ago it was to get me through my husband's year long deployment. Well I am now living in Washington state, thankfully not having to stress about finding a job and enjoying every day spent with my husband. We have travelled to Hawaii and took a mini-weekend vacation to Reno. I am enjoying finding recipes on Pinterest and being a housewife. But my focus the last three months have been trying to get pregnant naturally; however, with one ovary, endometriosis, and my age - pregnancy has not occurred. So I will now be writing to keep a journal for myself as I dive headfirst into doctor's appointments, fertility testing, consultations, etc. A deployment blog that will now become an infertility blog. I suppose God had me reading blogs so that I would be prepared for this day. And though I know I am not alone, this road definitely feels lonely at times. It is emotional and draining. And it sucks! I cry, I get angry, I am optimistic - its a rollercoaster.

I have to put out there that being home and seeing the "crap" reality television on the daily does not help.... "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" "16 and pregnant" "Teen Moms" "High School Moms".... Are you kidding me?!  These people popping out kids left and right that they cannot even take care of is on 24/7. You know it would be nice if they had more shows on the reality of how hard it is for average people to get pregnant and how damn expensive it is. Just sayin.

Yesterday was my first appointment in Washington state with the gynecologist. I have to say that I got really lucky and she was wonderful. She was completely pro-active and on board with getting the ball moving with getting me pregnant. So Monday I go for an HSG test and then move from there.

And through all of this my hubby has been AMAZING!!! He is supportive and ready to go as far as we need to.

Let's do this!

Day 321 Memorial Day

My hubby is home safe and sound! We have been enjoying the last few days together. He arrived on Memorial Day. It was so amazing to see so many people at the airport that evening with signs and flags supporting our soldiers. I'm so lucky to have him home and now we can begin our life together.

Day 311 - Weekend Wrap Up

I have been thinking about celebrating my 40th birthday with my family @ Legoland for almost an entire year and Saturday was the day. I took advantage of the great ticket prices at the MWR on base. I'm still getting used to these perks of being a military wife. Back to Legoland... It was so very exciting and fun to see it through the eyes of the four year old seated next to me in the picture below.

 

He just recently in the last few months has become obsessed with Legos. My mom had saved all of my brothers Legos from childhood. So watching his kids play with them has been really neat. The last time we were at Legoland he was just a baby so this time was really exciting. My nephew had the best time and wanted to go on all the rides over and over. We had my dad with us who had a hip replacement about 12 years ago so a park employee suggested we take advantage of the handicap pass they offer (like Disneyland does). Fast pass track to all the rides... What a lifesaver! We walked on to every ride and it was wonderful.  Got to do almost everything in the park in the short eight hours that the park was open. It was the best way to celebrate 40!

My niece hadn't been to the park since she was four and had no memory of the park. She had a blast! She was a brave one and went on the rollercoasters. I screamed like a little girl and she thought it was hilarious. I am so lucky to have such a fun family. I am going to miss times like these when I move in a few short weeks. But I know that I will visit often and we will be moving back to San Diego asap!

It is my last week of work.... Thank the Lord!  Eight and 1/2 years there and I can't wait to be on a break from working.  I love what I do but the last nine months there have been really horrible and boring.  It's time for a much needed and deserved break. I am so so excited to spend June with my honey and go to Hawaii.

Day 301 - Fridays Letters

Dear General in Afghanistan, Thank you for finally signing my husband's Letter of Release. He's finally coming home. And he's coming home early. I will forever be grateful that you granted his request.
Dear Work, It hasn't been that much fun being back for a week, but I will be leaving you here soon. Really not going to miss you.
Dear Washington State, I look forward to getting to know you next month. And I am really excited about the cooler weather. Just keep the rain away for a little bit, pretty please.
Dear Endometriosis, The nausea you have plagued me with this morning has not been fun.  Please stop!
Dear Pycnogenol, I really really hope you help with the above mentioned letter to endo and nausea. Praying you make a difference.
Dear Forty Club, I hope you take it easy on me since I have to deal with the Endo mentioned above. But I did have a wonderful Wednesday celebrating my birthday with family.
Dear Hubby, I love you and am so happy you will be home soon. XOXO



Day 300 - So Close

I cannot believe that my husband has been officially in Afghanistan for 300 days. And we finally have his homecoming date. It hasn't really set in yet that next month I will be in Washington State and that my husband will be home. I get to see him every day! Looking back on the last 300 days I have been really blessed that we have been able to communicate via telephone, email, and Facetime. It's been a long 300 days but it's almost over. Finally!

Day 287 Fridays Letters

I've been reading Fridays Letters for quite a while now. It's one of my favorite blogs to read. So I'm taking the plunge and writing my first Fridays Letters post.

Dear Husband:  Thank you for calling me daily even if its just to say I love you. You are so far away and hearing your voice makes my day.

Dear OB/GYN:  Thank you for agreeing that surgery was the best option for removing my cysts. Even though you found endometriosis, you were able to save my right ovary and have been so encouraging in my future ability to have babies of my own.

Dear Nieces & Nephew:  Thank you for your infectious laughter, bright smiles and unconditional love. Watching you all grow up and being able be like a 2nd mommy means the whole world to me.

Dear McDonalds:  Thank you for having the BEST sweet tea in Southern California. I'm enjoying my first sweet tea in 2 weeks as I write this post.

Dear Library: Thank you for making ordering books online so easy And with as quickly as I read a book, I am grateful that you always have current selections available and it doesnt cost me a dime.